Second Hand Lions

Watching Second Hands Lions with my Dad. It's one of our favorite movies. The story is just so perfect and complete. It has a little bit of everything in it. I hope to be as great a storyteller myself someday. It's definitely givnig me something to shoot for. It has both action and romance. And there are scenes when the audience is scared for some of the characters. I wodner, was this story made by just a great screenwriter, or was it a book or graphic novel first?

Joe Bobb likes to chew on my chin and thumbs. Sadie likes to lick him. I'm not sure what that's about....we are all content for now. I hope nothing else major happens in my life besides my wedding someday, and hopefully giving birth to my future children. Dear God, I have a feeling of dread like something bad will happen. Please, prove me wrong.

Work

I am so tired of writng papers. When I tell people this they look at me like I'm crazy for wanting to be a writer. What they don't seem to understand is when you ejnoy literature, writng a story that you get to chose its content is fun. Writing essays is what I'm tired of doing. I feel like i'm just repeating myself over and over. There is no such thing as an original paper anymore. I guess the same cold be argued about works of fiction, but I still such potential to be unique.

Looking forward to later this afternoon. I'm going to spend the day with my mother and we are going to the mall. I hope it's not too crowded. It's got to be full of holiday shoppers. So annoying. I was finished Christmas shoppnig 3 weeks ago. I wish other people planned a head also. We are needing to return some stuff or else we wouldn't be going.

Joe Bob learned how to use the ramp inside his cage. I was worried he couldn't crawl p it to get to his food. Last night I wok eup to his scratching sounds. He was trying to stand up right and pull himself up onto the upper level. The poor thing couldn't do it and fell. Who ever designed this cage was stupid. Why would you create a slick walk way? I'm glad we figured this out in less than a days time. I'm also glad we had been feeding him out of our hands. Thank goodness he wasn't being starved.

My dog, Sadie, likes to play with Joe Bob. She started to lic his fur. Joe Bob made a purring sounded and nibbled on Sadie's leg. She assumed he was trying to bite her so she tried to pounce on him. Luckily I was able to delfect Sadie before she could hurt him. I guess I can't let them play together anymore.

End of the Semester Jitters

I'm editing a paper I've written for Dr. Macey. I've been staring at it a while now; don't know if it's going to get an better. I guess I'm feeling more stress than usual since it's being read a highly intelligent individual who controls my grade. Also, this paper is taking the place of a final exam. I'm really nervous about how it'll turn out. Mostly scared I'll sound stupid. I'm almost done wit my craft essay for my Comic class; mainly editing it as well. This whole semester went by fast though and I'm scared I haven't completed something that I should have. But of course I always have this feeling. Someday I want to be rich enough to higher a personal assistant. Today I had a ental appointment written down in my planner for 11:00AM. I had a feelign I must've got the date wrong though. I called ahead to the clinic to check, and sure enough I had the wrong date and time! How does this always happen? I could have swore I was extra careful when I wrote it down. This is why I need help. I'm about the be 24 and I feel like I can't even take care of myself. I bet this is why I'm also scared about my final grades this semester even though I've got good grades on al lmy assingments thus far. My boyfriend tells me allt he time that I worry too much. Which is funny because he stresses out real easily too. Bless him for having the power to calm me down though.

JoeBob

My 24th birthday is coming up soon. My mother went with me to Edmond today to check out of my apartment. While we were there we went to PetSmart. She told me to pick out a guinea pig for my birthday! I picked out one of the smallest ones they had. They said they just got him in the other day and he's still a baby. I've never had a guinea pig before so I keep laughing at all the cute sounds he makes. I can't wait till he's "popcorning" like the worker at the store said he would; apparently when they're really excited to see you they jump up and down. They also whistle for attention! Her and my jack russell terrrier are getting along really well. That surprised me.

I asked my dad and mom what we should name him. Dad came up with the name JoeBob. He looks like a completely different guinea pig depending on which side you look at him from; hence the two names!

Got to go. Baking brownies while typing essays and playing with my pets. More later.

Christmas Shopping

Every year me, my sister, my cousins, my aunt and my grandmother all have a girls day out and go shopping together. Last year, just a month and a half after Leslie died we all went shopping together. I think we each cried at different times. This year will be just as rough. I still miss just as much. Sometimes I think it hurts more because it's longer that I haven't got to see her. I wish she could watch our little cousin Devon now that he's walking. And I want her to be able to see our cousin Garrett before he goes to Guam. My life, my family, has altered greatly in just a little over a year. I honestly feel like a different person now and I don't know if that's good or bad. Sadie is amazing. I still miss Bear. I have other girls saying I'll be your sister. Which is a nice gesture but obviously does not count. All of my typing seems random. Sorry about that. I'm also worried. I have several essays I'm working on my school. I thinking I'm coming done with something. I feel like crap. Oh well...

Semester is over. Time of truth.

My Birthday

I told my roommate Tadashi first what's been on my mind: I'm about to have my 24th birthday. It's not a huge milestone or anything, but that's how old Leslie was when she died. It's depressing. A little sister should never have to catch up in age to her older sister. I still celebrated Leslie's 25th birthday and I will every birthday after that, but I feel like her mind and body are frozen in time. No one will ever see what she would look like if she were older than 24. She never got to have her dream wedding or start a family like she wanted. If things go as they should, I will have done all those things in my lifetime.

This year I will be 24. Next year I will be 25; one of the many things Leslie will never get to do. Spring 2012 I will graduate with my Masters degree. That's probably the first thing I will get to experience before her even though she was heading toward that goal first. This year I watched one of her favorite books that had been turned into a movie. I hung up the Christmas lights, her annual tradition. I got to eat lunch with Scott today, Leslie's love of her life. They were so close to getting married I feel like he's my brother. Though Leslie is gone, all the bonds she helped me form during her life remain and in a weird way feel stronger.

It feels like Leslie's life and my life are slowly blending together since I'm doing things she was doing before she passed away. Normally I would be looking at what Leslie had done recently and think to myself, "I will get to do that too someday." Now that I've caught up to her, I feel like my life isn't real. It's just a dream and I try to just get through each day. Leslie's my best friend. Everything feels hollow without her.

Nothing but OSU Haters

For as long as I can remember, I have heard people discuss how OSU has improved but at the moment of truth they will choke. This season the cowboys proved everyone wrong. They slaughtered at Bedlam and the only game they lost was on the road in a double over time and after learning some of their OSU faculty was killed in a plane crash. This team deserves much more recognition and respect than the rest of the country is giving them. I am so sick of hearing the SEC this the SEC that. From what I understand LSU and Alabama did not have that hard of a season. How do we know they're good if they didn't play anyone!? Meanwhile the Cowboys played ranked teams and teams with a winning season. The most annoying aspect of this season has been hearing the ESPN reporters lobbying for LSU and Alabama. And that Herbstreit guy is a joke. I've never seen a more biased individual. OSU was statistically higher than Alabama when the BCS looked at the computer scoring. So that means it was other biased coaches who determined the outcome of the BCS championship match up, not skill. Let's not forget that the last time LSU and Alabama played was a snooze fest. I guarantee you this Cowboys fan won't be watching this disgrace of a rematch. Maybe if Alabama trully deserved 2nd place, but without my favoritism even, the Cowboys were clearer the better of the two teams.